

depressionI am sad like hell, I want to cry as hard as I can. I need some rest, time doesn't matter right now. I don't care about my duties or my plans. I just want to sit down and let everything out.depression
But I keep smiling. Lately, everytime I become sad, I start smiling. I don't want this, but everytime I try to stop, I begin to laugh. I am tired of all this, I want to be alone and sleep untill all is gone, until all the pain is gone or until my shirt is wet and I become sick.
But everytime I got sleepy and want to go to rest, I found some energetic and happy music, I didn't want t


happinessLately there have been tears, flooding my eyes. I don't have a clue why, nor do I feeld bad when it happens. On top of that, parts of my body hurts sometimes. Just sharp, really hurting pain. From one second up to 10.happiness
It is like my body is not under my control. Like my body knows something, I don't. Like he doesn't like me anymore.
I don't feeld bad, because of the pain or the tears. It just horrified by the thought of losing contact to my body. I'm even more horrified but also curious by the reasons.
I seem to be sick, but I don't really feel like I really am. &


End ThemeMay all the good things All the fun ever be drawn to this pointEnd Theme
because this is the end
May all things be irrelevant All money be split All possessions be dissolved
because this is the end
All flaming souls be united in a fire All shadowed minds be enlightend May everthing be changed
because it doesn't matter
Plans be planed Promises been made Flowers watered
because nothing matters
May everything cold be warmed May everything blinded be covered May eveything stay the same &n


Meine ungefaehre GefuehlsslageRegen fällt auf meint Haupt Ich schaue in den Himmel Wolken die mir nichts sagen Hät' ich doch eher nach oben geschautMeine ungefaehre Gefuehlsslage
und du weisst nichts du weisst nicht wie's mir geht wie ich mich irgendwie fühle wie ich mich irgendwann gefühlt habe
Ich denke zurück was ich für Erlebnisse hatte Ich sehe immer wieder dieses Lachen eher ein Lächeln, weil ich es nicht ertrage jemand anderes lachen zu sehen
und du weisst nichts du weisst nicht wie's mir geht wie ich mich irgendwie fühle wie ich mich irgendwann
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Rise and bloom, deacay and rise, rise and bloom
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Rise and bloom, deacay and rise, rise and bloom
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No One`s There
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